Shopping!

We went out shopping yesterday. Mum bought lots and lots of things. To name a few, a set of SKII skincare, a set of Lancome skincare, Estee Lauder blockbuster set which I don't think the colour is nice; a few dress from DKNY, BCBG, Versace and mum was so crazy to buy a pair of Jimmy Choo. That pair of shoes cost RM3700!

I asked mum to keep her clothes and shoes nicely so she can pass on to me. Mum said she will buy new clothes for me. However, I told mum not to waste too much money on all these designer goods. I do not appreciate them that much anyway.

To me, I will need a few clothes that I need daily and probably a few dinner dresses to spare; some bags to go with the clothes and a few pairs of good shoes. Will do. And with that, the wardrobe is already full! Haha!

Exam soon!

The pass week was very busy. Exam is just round the corner. Mum was so nervous as she is the one sitting for exam. She's the one busy with all the soup and nutritious food. And I have to eat all of them! I am gonna be so fat after the exam.

Mum's love is so undeniable. If really mum and dad seperated, I will definitely go with mum. Furthermore, I do not think I can live with that young woman either. Mum, I love you.

Perfect man

My parents marriage is not a happy-ever-after-fairy-tale-like marriage. But I never lose hope. I still think beautiful marriages exist. It is to find your love. Someone always tell me this, there's no perfect match in the world, but perfect compromise. With lots of love, there'll be lots of compromise with no tears and argument.

I've never had a steady boyfriend before, I do not really understand what's relationship's love should be. Next time, if I really want to look for a boyfriend, I will have to open my eyes big big to make sure I don't go for the wrong guy.

Grandpa always says that mum chose the wrong guy but i think mum and dad should have had some good time together before. I am sure mum married dad because they truly loved each other before. Though I am not sure about it now.

Coming from a rich family, mum said it will be more difficult for me to get the right guy as they might come after my money. However, I still believe there'll be true love out there for me. I will pray hard, pray very hard for my perfect man in my life!

Hate and Love

Mum and dad might get divorce, my grandpa said. That something I do not wish to see. Was it really mum who pushed dad away? Or it was dad's excuse to have another woman out there who is too young to be my stepmother? I am 16, and I heard she's only 26. I can't even call her aunty. She is just too young.

I can never understand adult world, and I don't think they understand either. They are not considerate, not responsible, and they don't know love. Well, at least not my parents. They commited a marriage and promised to take care and to love each other till death to them part. But they didn't. They ran away from each other after the sparks of love subside. And ME, a "product" of their love, is no longer inprotant either because they don't love each other anymore. I, am extra.

They don't know love, they never know how to love each other, they don't even know how to love me. I've got everything a girl wants, but I don't get a family. I don't feel their love.

They are irresponsible, they just walked away without considering about my feeling.

I love them and hate them at the same time. They are just too cruel.

Rejected!

Dad came home last night for dinner. It was a very quiet dinner, so quiet that I want to cry. It didn't feel like a family dinner at all. It was 3 complete strangers having food on the same table. No one said anything. It was so cold.

At the end of the dinner, I couldn't stand it, so I opened my mouth first and asked if dad and mum want to have dessert, I wasn't sure if there's any but I just wanted to break the silence. Both of them were "polite" enough to say yes. So I went to kitchen and get some cakes which was leftover from mum's high tea with friends at home yesterday. Who cares?!

I got out from the kitchen and the atmosphere was even colder than before. Damn, they must had some argument while I was away. Dad stood up and kissed me on my forehead, said goodbye and left again. I was so upset!!!! I miss dad for a week!

Dad loves me, there is no doubt about it. He would not argue with mum in front of me, he cares for my feeling a lot. Mum is different, mum loves me in a very expressive way. She will make a big hoo haa on how much she loves me. They are very different person and God knows why they were together initially. Ah... like what my grandpa always say, because mum is rich. I do not agree on that!

After dad left, mum started to cry and went back to her room. I was left all alone in the icy cold dining room with the pityful left over cake that was being rejected again today. Sigh, cake, we are just the same. Rejected.

I've got presents!

Mum bought me a few things today. It should be a happy thing to share about but it is totally opposite.

Dad has not been home for a week. Mum is truly very upset about it, that's why she went out shopping, to spent a lot of dad's money, I think that's not helping at all. And she bought me a few very expensive stuff that I don't even need. I have 3 designer purses, LV, Coach and Gucci; 2 LV and 1 Gucci handbags. I don't need them.

In fact, I do not wish to receive any thing from my mum anymore. I wish she could be happy and not buying me stuff because she's upset. I sincerely wish that.

Blogging finally!

Finally I have got myself signing up as a blogger. Thanks to aunty viv. Ooops, I think I shouldn't be calling you aunty in the public, hor? :P

I will try to make sure I post something up frequently. :)